TheY behaves like a unaducated child, so far to what he had lerned
Unlearned child in my opinion is a person, who decide something without any knowledge, like you.
I have not much knowledge about bh. Thanissaro Bhikkhu, so I listening him.
But you, Johann, who never learn buddha's learning system, never learn abhidhamma-pali, never learn tipitaka history, never learn commentary-pali, and never learn netti-pali, can decide them.
Your knowledge is realms. It is just imagine about buddha's dhamma. It is not whole of tipitaka. You cut it up to your imagine.
There is no such as taking live or help in suicide usuall here, you are fre to take a rest in vibhava tanha for awhile, and since the is no other door for theY to ever come out of hell in this very live again, he is always wellcome to do another try in basics and good work.
Because you are not theravāda monk, yo try to cut tipitaka.
So buddha taught me to kill myself form this forum by this sutta:
[259] upāsakadhamma 5 — qualities of an excellent lay disciple
1. upāsaka is endowed with faith (open mind in logic [paṭiccasamuppādadhamma, and buddha+sangha who teach it]).
2. upāsaka have good conduct (sīla, 10 kusalakammapatha).
3. upāsaka is not superstitious. upāsaka believing in deeds, not luck.
4. upāsaka not seek for the gift-worthy outside of the Buddha’s teaching.
5. upāsaka do his first service in a Buddhist cause.
http://www.84000.org/tipitaka/dic/d_item.php?i=259
Btw, could not find the linked talk, but there are many in thai language as well. Have a little compassion for your self, and give practice a try to understand who actually is you only enemie: avija
Here some really good help, if able, now as being in low realms: http://www.dhammatalks.org/thai_index.html
Bh. Thanissaro Bhikkhu's taught you only
saṅvarapārisuddhi-sīla: sense-control (sīla 4) . Everything, such as ariyasacca 4, that he taught, is stop here. He maybe taught something deep more at sometime. But it is not often, because it is not his meditation. His meditation just only saṅvarapārisuddhi-sīla.
saṅvarapārisuddhi-sīla was having long time ago, before buddha enlightened. It is not important to have buddha, if he taught only it.
Just go to Psychiatrists Center, or jhāna meditation center, if you need it. You don't need buddha, Johann.
It have many thing that buddha taught, but you cut it off. Then you get only some words that you can understand.Or try to learn more, to understand tipitaka more than your teacher has taught you.