Honest... that is a hard-core livelihood, this skills and tasks, a hundred languages. Without strict sila (conduct in conventions) or under the battle with a mass of unvirtuose, real hard. Something conductive for kettenrauchen and the hindrence of remorse. Yet it may give short great pleasure if something works out as seeming "this is real, this is lasting, this is mine, me, my self"
My person does not wonder why the internet-buddists are for the most neurotic and bend down people. People must be crasy underestimating the kamma in this realm of existence, under Brahma, Devas of enjoying creation and Devas of control over the creations of others, Brahman worlds, western, modern characters.