Uncle is surely putting a heavy test for meditator.
Is uncle confident enough of his calibur-- if same will be done by 'I'?
Behaviour is a matter of will.
Nobody wishes bad set of events for self. Decisions made in this way, by different self-s usually clashes with each other ultimately leading to conflicts. Theoritically, Unless&untill decision is made through 8fold Noble path-- clashes won't stop.
And desire something,
Desire is something that results in loneliness. For whatever meditator has desired till now, remain impermanent.
not knowing how to gain, like here and now, leaves bad behaviour behind.
If such is the case, noone would be having defiled behaviour because of forgotten previous-birth. If uncle says, "leaving and joining here"-- all those who either took birth in monastery or are being taken care by monastery dwellers since birth-- would not be having defiled behaviour, would have been arhant, gem? Hope uncle knows such is not the case.
Faulty there is no freedom of remorse, no freedom of remorse, no pity, ease, happiness, concenration, ...release.
Is uncle free from remorse, is uncle liberated, an arhant, a gem?
••• then good if looking for someone knowing the path (way of conduct).
Meditator is practicing for this after tiring of 'looking for'.
May Nyom let it be known what he likes to leave and where he likes to arrive, as soon as clear about those things.
Meditator is here to share experience &/or **events only.
Theoritically, after 'I' will disappear, there will be no place to arrive, no place to leave. Till then, meditator is practicing, learning.