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"As a nun you are not only a pioneer...", right, like many monks merely partisan, revolutionary, loan soldier... outwardly, not even inwardly at all... and for what? Wouldn't it be better to die for Silas?
Please Stop!
As a nun you are not only a pioneer, with much less support than the monks, both spiritually and financially and often don’t have a place to stay. Many monks pretend you don’t exist or treat you like some contageous disease because they fear their own defilements. You are cut off from your male friends because you have the wrong gender. Nuns try to find fault with other nuns for not keeping the rules the way they feel they should be kept out of fear of not being accepted themselves. And lay people often have all kinds of preconceived ideas of what a nun should be like, almost like a picture of perfection, always smiling and happy. But the truth of the matter is that we are just people, and yes, I’m depressed at times too. I don’t always smile and am not always happy. Does that make me a bad nun? Or does it make me human?
Sometimes I envy those monks who can live the monastic life with an inspiring teacher and learn the living Dhamma. I never had that. Most other nuns never had that. Our teacher is the internet. We have to find our own way. And yes, it can be very lonely at times. Even if you are lucky enough to be able to stay near an inspiring monk for a few months, you are never accepted into the community, always kept at a distance; there is always this tension because you are seen as a danger to their monastic life. It it is sometimes hard not to buy into that feeling of inferiority, of feeling you are just not good enough.
I admire all those women, whether they have 8 or 10 precepts or are fully ordained, who have to fight every day to keep in the robes, to battle the depressions and the setbacks, who have no place to stay and no support, because they have the sincere wish to follow the Dhamma. It is not up to me to find fault with the way they keep their rules. Many have to use money or cook for themselves; they just don’t have the support. If I would criticize them for that, I would not be following the Buddha’s teachings. Instead, I should look at their conduct. Do they show compassion and help each other? Do they try to overcome their defilements and pardon each other’s faults, acknowledging that we all want to learn, to develop ourselves? The Vinaya are the guidelines for our practice, not the be-all and end-all of all things. If the Vinaya becomes a cause for anger, resentment and faultfinding, we have lost the way.
So can we please stop faultfinding and criticizing each other and try to develop ourselves in the Dhamma and support each other in that? If somebody has the wholesome intention of ordaining, and at least 10-20 monastics come together to confirm this wholesome intention, should we then try to find fault in all the details of the procedure and accuse that person of not being actually ordained? Should we not stop all this faultfinding and help each other? Is that not the Buddha’s intention? Isn’t it difficult enough to live this monastic life?
The Sangha should be a refuge, we should all help each other, regardless of our gender or our background, regardless of our ordination lineage, regardless of how we interpret the Vinaya, or if we are not ordained at all. We should stop finding fault with each other and putting each other down, but ask ourselves how we can support each other. Life is hard enough.
Oh Ananda...!
Don't you use to touch lay peoole emotional since a long time now? Don't you play with
Affection like a politican since a long time for taking a site and personal benefit?
It reminds me of the monk destroying the robe in the middle of the community.
At least such ugly thing happend only within the community and not public.
Seek out for Nissaya. Start a new, at the beginning, if there is reason for it and don't encourage those equal not having basic respect or even worse to walk on and do not improve.
One does not grow when defilements are fondled.
Like sortly a "
Silly nun ", having the blessing to have teacher, occasion... prefered not to practice but to entertain lay community. Rebuked to try to get her on the path, not that she wisely considered, she made her taken blog into private... seek for the Sangha, use proper places to work out "troubles" and stay away from dealer and corrupted, those doing you a favor, encourage you even to break Vinaya, steal...
Do you like your daughter, sister fall into the same like you? So then, encourage her to seek for proper Nissaya and to undertake again the test time without laps, for she can ordinate a secound time...!
And don't worry, monk at large are even worse, but since they feel more secure, there absolutly no help for then and they will soon return into houselive or damage themselves till the end.
Maybe basics of what is a friend and what an enemy should be considered wise for it's
"for ones welfare that wise criticize, ask, cross-question..."
A person asking for "please stop to criticize" is not fit, does not approch the training right but simply seeks for a hide for defilement in protection of the Juwels.
You better feel ashamed that you used to break the hearts of the lovers over there, rather to give them a real refuge!
So go on proper and develop some basic faith in kamma and seek not for weak to oppose propably rightly firm and strong, but take refuge into the, the Noble ones.
Children, Bullets
A gun shoots its children — its bullets — outward. We shoot ours inward, into our heart. When they're good, we're shot in the heart. When they're bad, we're shot in the heart. They're an affair of kamma, our children. There are good ones, there are bad ones, but both the good and bad are our children all the same.
When they're born, look at us: The worse off they are, the more we love them. If one of them comes down with polio and gets crippled, that's the one we love the most. When we leave the house we tell the older ones, "Look after your little sister. Look after this one" — because we love her. When we're about to die we tell them, "Look after her. Look after my child." She's not strong, so you love her even more.
Even in wordly relations, when a woman starts to criticize a man, if he is actually one, the relation is broken, and it will be a hard, if she is wise an sees a need, to solve that again, ask for pardon and turn into seclusion for proper time, cuts of with corrupt relations, till rehabilitated after a while.
If not breaking the main rules, althought there is also much danger, there is nothing that can not be fixed in this Dhamma-Vinaya, Brahmacariya.
You foolish "girls", yet like to walk around tudonga at the same time. You not even have an idea of word and Samsara yet, simply mistreaded, wealthy and pride people, not knowing bodily pain but simly the mental pain of desire. Fix the problems according the tread rules of the medicine.
And fis that gender info in your profil, or don't you know you are a woman and not a hermaphrodite? Or are you? Then, in that case, your odination is valid and you need to be expelled.
Got it! The basic rules within the world, to not violate to fix even those for beyound.
It's not that one is well supported, proper supported because he/she is desired to become a "house pig" for traders. Desired on the marked, but by sticking to Vinaya. Why desire to become a house pig?
Don't you know the story of
munika the pig , havn't you taken this story, ungiven before? See is it is of use when given.
It is "hoped" that it is seen that your "explosion", the throwing away of the robe and stand naked by breaking the basic rules for woman, is another grave falt.
There are given proper areas and they are open to use for everybody with wisdom or faith, Upanissaya.